A few days ago, like any other normal day, I picked up The Boys after school along with our new friend Sam and his friend (or so we thought), Peter.
They all piled into the car, tossing backpacks and giggling, still in conversation about the day's events.
Lot's of "Dude!" and "Seriously!" followed by more laughter, my favorite sound...
Sam has become part of our family as have several of the Boys' friends over the years.
Every once in awhile a kid comes over to play and it all just clicks. They feel comfortable, we feel comfortable, and their energy is fun and easy to have around.
This, uplifting feeling is cozy and good. To be able to identify this has served us well as a sort of guide for the circles we want to be a part of in life.
In contrast, kids have come and quickly gone that have not "clicked". The feeling or energy was identified as "low" or just not comfortable. These experiences have held their own value as does everything in life if we choose to view it that way.
Sam is funny, brilliant, and simply makes the room light up. It is a joy to be in his company.
In the car that day, Sam was in the middle of the back seat with Peter to his right. Soon Peter began to sort of wrestle and push with Sam while everyone was laughing. I watched in the rear view mirror as Sam laughed too, but was expressing he wanted it to stop. Sam started to push back and before I could realize what was happening I watched in horror as Peter smacked Sam in the face as hard as he could.
I, being in the middle of traffic, expressed a loud, "Whoa!!"
The kids we're dead silent and I watched Sam fight back the tears.
Something was terribly wrong.
Peter sort of apologized to Sam as we dropped him off, but something still didn't feel right.
We finally got home and I invited Sam to sit with me away from everyone. He silently walked with me and the tears became sobs. Sam confided that this wasn't the first time this had happened. In fact, this behavior had been going on for years.
Sam was being bullied.
Abused.
Buttons were pushed ... both Personal and Mommy...
I sat with Sam as the sobbing began to subside. His breath became normal and was feeling lighter. My mind searched for solutions...
He shared that, yes his parents know and over the years there have been conversations....
As a parent/Momma Bear one wants to simply "handle it" ... yet this is not a long term answer in my opinion.
The change happens when healing and inner strength are gained.
When and internal "NO!" is shouted.
So Sam and I discussed how wonderful he is...
That he is so much fun to be around...
How deserving he is to be treated well... and that anything less is simply not expectable.
Therefore, Peter would not be welcome in Sam's space for awhile, if ever.
I shared with Sam that it's alright to say no. To not "please". Personal boundaries are a healthy, good, and important thing to take ownership of.
So Sam began to learn a new language and my prayer is that a turn was taken in his journey towards self love.
In the mean time, we've made arrangements.
Peter, in step with classic Abuser behavior, expected to jump in the car as if nothing had happened... he was shocked when I said, "Nope, sorry dude..." and he stomped off without the slightest, remote expression of respect.
Sam's eyes were bright and he smiled when our eyes met in the rear view mirror.